The muzak: Sleep All Day - Jason Mraz
September 05, 2006
any given dayI want to write a song
But my soul is trapped in this body
This body with music trapped in its fingers
These calloused fingers,
they feel so incapable
Incapable of playing more than the chords they already know
Incapable of writing a song worth singing
These calloused fingers,
they should be flipping thrugh the pages of Huckleberry Finn
But right now,
They'd rather be playing tunes they'd forget by tomorrow
Playing tunes to the words they'd forget by tomorrow
...some poem i wrote a long time ago while i was procrastinating with english homework. haha.
i still haven't gotten to write a song. i really want to but its so hard. it must be such a nice feeling making up a tune no one else has before (esp if its really good) and then putting words to it. i admire people who can do that.
anyways, once again, i've been reminded of selfishness during the past week. how selfishness ruins relationships and ruins yourself. because that wasn't what God created us for. He didn't create us for ourselves, but for HIM. what's the use of living solely to feed our desires? that's not where joy is found.
It is absolutely clear that God has called you to a free life. Just make sure that you don't use this freedom as an excuse to do whatever you want to do and destroy your freedom. Rather, use your freedom to serve one another in love; that's how freedom grows. For everything we know about God's word is summed up in a single sentence: Love others as you love yourself. That's an act of true freedom. If you bite and ravage each other, watch out - in no time at all you will be annihilating each other, and where will your precious freedom be then?
My counsel is this: Live freely, animated and motivated by God's Spirit. Then you won't feed the compulsions of selfishness. For there is a root of sinful self-interest in us that is at odds with a free spirit, just has the free spirit is incompatible with selfishness. These two ways of life are antithetical, so that you cannot live at times one way and at times another way according to how you feel on any given day. Why don't you choose to be led by the Spirit and so escape the erratic ccompulsions of a law-dominated existence?
- Galations 5:14-18 (from The Message version)
well, i missed school today! haha i absolutely could not wake up this morning. had a really long talk with isaku last night, and it was definitely worth staying up.
the word "disillusionment" has been swirling around in my head the past few days. how something good can immediately become a disappointment once disillusionment comes in. and disillusionment, is it true? i think its usually the truth that disppoints us. disillusionment is a type of truth that awakes us to the ugly side of reality. i'm the kind of person who dreams (sometimes pretty unrealisitically) a lot, so disillusionment is extremely hard to handle. but it'll never ever stop me from dreaming. it's too fun :)
i'm just in the mood to ramble right now. just letting my thoughts flooow. and i miss jeremy. it really stinks having to talk to him on the phone and not be able see him. isaku's watching armegeddon right now. can't see the tv but the background music is very dramatic. its okay, it kind of matches this post. hahaha.
dang it, i wanna be in the movie right now.
i wanna be in a super sappy and dramatic scene with tears in my eyes saying lines like "daddy don't go."
my mom said i can have a vespa when i go to japan. yay! i'll be riding around tokyo in my vespa. i need to graduate NOW.
just kidding, school's been pretty fun actually. soccer was fun to the MAX. even though i got my shin hit pretty badly i couldn't walk that night. its all purplegreenandblue now. didn't think girl's soccer would be that violent. but it's the only time in my life i have a good reason to be violent i guess. it was sooo fun. i realised how much i love it more than basketball. basketball's kinda blah for me to be honest. but SOCCER.. *squeal* hahaha okay...... anyways.
another picture of me and jeremy :) i am wearing swedish colors.
What goes "oom oom"?